A Godly wife

For two weeks I fasted and prayed for a godly future spouse.  God has been showing me that I need to give up who he wants me to marry to him.  He has been reminding me that he is molding and shaping the girl he has for me in my life.  God will use this recent break up to show me what I need to work on as I seek his will for a godly woman to love and serve with.  I need to seek out advice from others in relationships and that are married.
On a random note, God showed me that I need to have good questions about the person I am talking to.  I need good questions about them personally and about their profile.  Also, I need to think of other  out of the box ways that I can get to know them.  If I do pursue someone else,  I can move the order of the specific dates around and plan out the dates I go on better.  This will allow me to get to know the person better.
Lastly, God showed me different ways I can pray for a future wife.  God showed me specific ways I can pray for the girl he has for me.  He showed me the specific qualities that I should be looking for in a wife.  Also, he showed me what to look for and not to look for in a future spouse.  It is important that I pray for these qualities constantly and specifically.

The book Never Give Up by Kyle Idleman

The book Never Give Up by Kyle Ideleman has challenged me various struggles I have been facing the past few weeks.  It has reminded me to keep going in the midst of trials in my life.  It has reminded me to keep perspective in these times.   Also, it has shown me those faith heroes that have gone before me in Hebrews 11 are cheering me on.  These faith heroes are in heaven cheering me on to keep pressing on every day despite struggles and trials.
In the book, he reminds us that these faith heroes are with God in heaven cheering us on.  They know what it looks like to go through a trial.  These people in Hebrews 11 know it takes a lot of testing and faith.  Also, they know what true faith is: the confidence in what we hope for and the assurance about what we do not see.  These people did not see the bigger picture of God's plan at the time but they trusted God.
Idelman also calls on the readers to keep perspective about what they are going through.   We do this by trusting God in our fears.  When we do this, it allows us to keep fighting.   If we run away from the struggle, we may miss our on God's blessing.   When we fight through the struggle, we will find God's power and presence.